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"FATHER"


I have suffered without you.
I have cried too many pointless tears.
I have worried, and thought, and questioned.
I have countless physical and emotional scars
because of you.
I was too anxious to realize
that you
Aren't even worth my time,
If I wasn't worth yours.

You call yourself my father,
You are by blood,
but that's all you are.
You are my father.
You are a critic.
You are a monster
only linked to me
by blood and DNA.

The monster part of me,
Is your entire being.
You are all my pain.
Nothing more.
Nothing less.
This goes out to my Biological Father, who was too immature at the age of 18 to help raise the human being that HE helped make.
Now everyone, raise your glasses to this man, my father, who has a new family; a W I F E and TWO C H I L D R E N.

He left my mother and I in the dust...before my mother was even 2 months pregnant.

:)

I have forgiven him; for him not being there, made me who I am today. :heart:
The pain made me stronger, no matter how long it took to realize that I didnt need him.
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Dollisuu Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Student Digital Artist
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NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Student General Artist
...? c:
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Dollisuu Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Student Digital Artist
i have the same position as you...but i love my dad :c...
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:iconnarutoanddeidararox:
NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Student General Artist
Kudos. C:
I cant love him. He's an asshole and I'm glad we dont talk. <:
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Dollisuu Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Student Digital Artist
heehee okay :o
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:iconblackparademajorette:
well at least your mom was able to raise you. this one girl i knew was in foster care and she would tell me how she wished her mom would've aborted her.
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NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2012  Student General Artist
That's awful. :( How's she doing now?
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:iconblackparademajorette:
i don't know, i haven't seen her for a while. last i heard she carved REJECTION in her arm, but i haven't seen her name in the papers, so she must be doing better
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immortal609 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
You ok?
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NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Student General Artist
.......yeah why? xD
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immortal609 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
It made it sound like something happened. You know you can trust me and talk to me right?
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NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Student General Artist
Yes. xD But, theres nothing TO talkk about, I swear.
My father left me and my mother 16 years ago, without a doubt or regret in his mind. I've actually met and KNOWN him for about 3 years now, and hes made one effort to speak to me. I talk to his WIFE every single day...I never hear from him.
I see my half brother and sister every now and again, but it's like he's a stranger to me.
I've gotten over it, even though I cant understand how a man could EVER THINK of abandoning his own fucking child!! Even if it was and 'accident' or a 'mistake'. He's a fucking pussy and should have his testicles removed because he is NOT a man.
.......
Sorry...I needed to let that out...^^;
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immortal609 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
*hug* Let out anything you need to, it's what i'm here for.
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NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Student General Artist
;A; Thanks man.
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immortal609 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
No problem, it's why i'm here. :)
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Kuro-Neko-Chan-007 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
It must have taken a lot of courage to write this. And it is absolutely lovely too. You've turned your suffering into something beautiful <3 I can't imagine life without my dad and I'm glad you became such a great person even without yours. "You did good"
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NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Student General Artist
I think it's a bit funny....You say you cannot imagine a life without your father, yet I cant imagine a life WITH mine.....
But you are indeed a lucky one. :) These things are becoming a trend nowadays....it's awful....
And thank you. :hug:
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Kuro-Neko-Chan-007 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
Yeah, I am. I'm lucky because my mom is the second woman he married. I love my half-brother and sister, but their mother wasn't the greatest.

My dad told me she would borrow my sister's car a lot with the seat back and cigarette butts on the floor while she was married for the second time and would take back the clothes my sister bought. He was also out one day and saw one of her exboyfriends in her car and nearly drove himself into a tree in fury.

If they had stayed together, I never would have been born.

...And you're absolutely welcome ^^
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CutieFlyCake Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Student Artist
....:iconfoxsighplz:
I'm sorry about the time you wasted to only discover he didn't care. :iconaawplz:
I know how you feel. Except my father got arrested when I was 3 months old, didn't return until I was 13. He told me he was at work the whole time. And I believed. All those letters. The years I've wondered...wasted.
I'm glad to say I'm happy with only my mother here. 0w0
My father is in jail again...

:shrug:

Three chances was enough. I'm free now. :heart:

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NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Student General Artist
:hug: I'm very happy with my mother, as well. She raised me to be a good person, and If my father really was there for me, who knows how screwed up I'd be. xD;;
Nah, but thanks for the comment. :heart: It's nice to hear from others in the same general situation.
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CutieFlyCake Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Student Artist
Your always welcome, dear. :hug:
Thank you for the poetry. It was lovely. :heart:
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KissyMama Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
This is terrible.
I am so lucky that when I because pregnant at 16 my current fiance was able to step up. But I always hear so often about all these poor children who live without a father just because of immaturity.

I'm glad you're doing well today.
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NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Student General Artist
Oh, I am so glad to hear your fiance stepped up.
He is a good man. :)
And thank you. :hug:
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KissyMama Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
Thank you. Yes he is, Now our 7 year old adores him. I'm so lucky but I wish the best of luck to everyone else as well.

You're very welcome. You're a very strong person. I can tell just from this.
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NarutoAndDeidaraRox Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Student General Artist
:hug:
Thanks so much for your comments. They're very much appreciated. :)
And good luck to you and your family. :heart:
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KissyMama Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
Awww, you're so welcome!

Oh thank you so much!
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